I shit my pants every time this drawing pops up in my photos LOL

I cannot believe I made that 5 years ago.

Maybe I'll redraw and render it.

I love just dropping small bites of my stories lore, I love writing my characters so much and sharing facts about them aaaa

It’s kind of annoying how my OCPD affects my art. 

I’m not able at all to start a new drawing till I finish whatever drawing I’m currently working on. If I start a drawing and don’t like it I still have to finish it. (That normally leads to me remaking the drawing all over again.) 

It’s so annoying because I have so many ideas in my head that I wanna draw out but my brain tell me “we can’t do that, that’s bad and lazy.” 

Another thing to, I find that my art style HAS improved but very little. I don’t want to change it but it would be nice if I could add more detail without my brain going “hey wait, we can’t give this character crows feet because that’s not on the reference.” 

Oh well, I’m still a good artist lol. I write down my ideas so at some point I’ll get to them haha

SORRY I WAS HAVING A MID-LIFE CRISIS ABOUT MY ART AND YEAH SO UHHHHHHHHHHH

I REPOSTED OLD ART I NEVER POSTED HERE THAT I REALLY LIKE

IM SO SORRY AAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Y'all I hate it when I see people posting shit like "uwu I want a stalker <33"

Like holy shit, my stalker made 10 accounts this week alone just to tell me to kill myself then offered to send me to art school and pay for it LOL

I'm trying to be happy and cheerful for this post and make people smile but I legit am so drained.

Every day feels like a gamble on whether I'm gonna get a DM telling from my stalker or not.

And the cops don't do shit because they're a family member >:(

I wish I could just IP ban them on everything but I can't, sucks ass.

You can tell how drained I am. My art keeps going from super detailed to poorly made, and I want to redraw it as soon as I post it.

It's not just an internet issue; my stalker has been trying to find out where I live.

Anyways y'all, stalkers are NOT fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:((((((((((

I love you all and thank you so much for listening to me BITCH again :D

So, as the title says,

I'm wondering if people would like it more if I post WIPs/doodles on here?

I think it might be a fun thing to do, I normally when I post WIPs I get to talk and share ideas with people to :)

So I think I'll be fun but I wanna hear what other people think!!!!

I never draw fanart because it always ends up with me getting super deep into a fandom but I couldn't stop myself.

I gotta draw his boyfriend tomorrow but for now, take this wip!!!!!!!!!!!!

A big issue I have with the people around me is that no one can be proud of me.

"You should go to art school" or "Why didn't you go to art school?" or fucking "That was such a waste of time, why didn't you go to art school"

I'm not going to get too deep into what my job is but it's high-paying and I love it, that's all that should matter. That I love my job and the pay is good.

But no, because I draw dicks well that means all the time I put into getting my job was pointless and a waste. It sucks because I love my job so much, so much joy and happiness all around every day!!! Like I have the best job in the world in my eyes. Way better than working as an artist full-time in some. Thats just me though.

Idk, maybe I'm just being a crybaby. I just wish someone would hold me and say they were proud of me.

Maybe I'll just hold myself, I'm proud of myself!

Not me wanting to see if people can help me report my stalker only to remember if I ask for help all my shit will be doxxed.

I wish my stalker would leave me alone man, I know it ain't that easy but I'm getting so sick of this shit.

I'm someone who works really hard. Maybe way too hard sometimes.

I have a few assignments due this month that I'm all done, they're not even due till next month but I just feel this need to work on them or else.

I feel so drained yet so happy that they're done!

I kind of feel hyper in a way too.

I have OCPD so it's not a shock that I'm like this, I just wish my brain wouldn't make me overwork myself in a day because I'm scared of bad grades.

It's like I have this voice in my head that tells me to do stuff or else things will end up bad.

but the good thing about overworking myself is even if I feel like shit, I have so much free time to draw or write or do whatever I want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so maybe working myself to death is ok because then I get to sit back and have fun.