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WHY IS IT SNOWING NO NO NO NO NO NO THIS CANT BE HAPPENING AGAIN

I CANT NO GOD DANMIT I HATE THE SNOW

I've redrawing something I made at the start of 2024. I'm posting a WIP to show how far I've come even just with simple stuff

Old, start of 2024:

Redraw Wip:

I'm so proud of myself. My art has come so far in so little time. I never though I'd be able to look at my art and think its any good but here I am.

Thank you to everyone, I love you all!!!!!!

I made this silly little video a while back. It took me 10 minutes to make and it has gotten 1K views?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X4qG4U_wjqU

I am dead-ass so confused on how this shit got 1K views or what I did right.

Thanks, y'all I love you???

Sometimes, I think about how when I was 12 years old, a 24-year-old fnaf artist made a call-out post on me raging that I had copied her "OC" William Afton lol.

I love to think that my old shitty William Afton Yaoi art got some random adult so upset that she believed I had copied her "oc" and told 12-year-old me to end my life LMAO.

It's crazy to think I'm almost the same age as that user now. God, I'm old.

A part of me is getting back into poetry.

I've been enjoying sitting down with a cup of hot cocoa and reading short poems from random people on their blogs.

It's making me want to get back into it as I used to write poems when I was younger.

I'd also like to use well-known poems in my art as well.

So what do you guys think? Should I get back into writing by writing short simple poems again?

I'd love to hear what people think!

Thank you, I love you all so much <3

I wish I knew how people read my posts and the tone they give them.

I'm saying this because there is this odd mindset that I don't want to live and that I'm just this depressing person.

It's so odd to me how so many people tell me that I'm worth living or that life gets better when I don't believe I've ever said anything on here about passing.

I fear that I made people worry for me with how I write out my thoughts.

No, I don't want to die. That's just selfish and I'd hurt the people around me if I did that. Even if I'm alone and have more bad days than good, I must keep on living. They are people and creatures that need me to live. Overall, I'd say I have a good life, I have everything I could ever want or need. I believe I'll always have a good life in some way even if it has its ups and downs. Life will always have that and that's what makes living so wonderful. Even if my bad days are more common, that's ok because I know soon I'll have nothing but good days.

I hope no one thinks that I'm leaving anytime soon (unless a bus hits me, LOL) and that no matter what I'm gonna keep on living. I'm sorry to anyone who may have been worried about me or my health.

Please take care of yourself and I love you.

To make everyone happy, here is a photo of one of my childhood cars :)

So, a while ago, I posted a poll asking people what they'd like to see more of from me and my art.

Wtf is wrong with y'all, why are you making me work? what the fuck did I ever do to you to make you actually care about my writing and the lore of my ocs and story.

So yeah, I guess I know what I'm doing over break, gonna learn how to use CapCut and make videos about my story and its lore! I already have 2 videos on my story lore but I guess people though those were neat??? looks like I'm making more!!!!

I love you all, it means so much that people actually wanna see my story and read about and learn the lore, gives me lots of butterflies in my stomach.

Again, thank you to everyone who supports my work and wants to see more of it. You don't understand how much this truly means to me. I love y'all so much, please never forget that.

One thing I don't understand is why so many people around me are alcoholics.

I'm not someone who drinks a lot, one or twice a month at max, so maybe this is normal?

I hate how many people I know who are alcoholics, they say they're not but I believe drinking every day or drinking for long periods (like, drinking non-stop for 3 days, not drinking for 4 then drinking again for another 5 days) is alcoholism.

It scares me, honestly, I don't truly feel safe around people who drink all the time.

I don't see it as a waste but I think they don't understand how they hurt people, how much they change.

I worry so much about their health and I hate dealing with the breakdowns after they're sober.

Too many people in my life are like this and I feel so overwhelmed sometimes, I'll do my job and help them, but you can't make a horse drink water y'know? so they fall back into the same habits as before and drink. The mess they leave behind, I always have to clean up after them.

It's annoying sometimes, they'll call me an alcoholic for having one or two drinks and even go as far as to say I'm the one with the problem.

I'm fine with people living they're life how every they want but I'm always gonna worry for you. Its part of my job to worry. I wanna help people but I can only do so much. If you're going to drink, please just take care of yourself and try and understand your actions.

Thanks for listening to my rant, love you all.

An issue I've always had with sleeping is that I always, and I mean always wake up at 4:30 in the morning.

I have never been able to sleep in and once I'm awake, even if I'm still tired I can't fall back asleep.

It's like my brain is stuck in this loop.

But today, oh boy today's sleep was kickass!

I woke up around 3:10, tired but knowing I wouldn't be able to fall back asleep so I checked out my accounts blah blah.

THEN BOOM

I'm asleep again and when I wake up its almost the middle of the day and I feel so full of energy, I don't even think I'll need coffee today thats how rested I feel.

I hope today will be a good day lol.

So yeah,

My mother named me after an animal, an animal of all things.

People think its cute and it is! it's very cute, I love the animal I'm named after to. they're great.

But the issue is that people think because I'm named after an animal I'm gonna act like an animal!

I get cat-called all the time by people who know my name, the one I hear most is "Kitcat" or they'll make commonest about my downstairs if you get what I mean. It's so annoying because people think they can just call me pet names and such because of my name and I feel like my gender also plays a role in it. I feel as if too many people get comfortable with me and think they can call me whatever they want because they think I'm lying about my name or that it's just a nickname.

I wish I could have gotten it changed but I'm missing all the paperwork I need for it and it's 400$ and then another god knows what for everything else.

My name makes me feel like I'm not human, I feel like people view me as this cute little toy whom they can "love."

It sucks because it's such a cute name to but people make it gross and gross and just gross!!!

Alright, that's all I gotta say, not a vent btw just a rant about how some people used to treat me, I'm not talking about anyone I know now.

Love you all I hope all you bad bitches have a KICKASS weekend (have a good weekend or I will CRY)