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I hate how I have so many art ideas in my head but I gotta do schoolwork, I only have like, a few things left to. I don't know why but my brain has just been filled with ideas this past month and I can only get so many of them drawn at a time aaaaaaaaaaaa

My winter break is coming up so I'm probably just gonna try and get all my ideas out since I'm gonna be alone for a month with nothing else to do lol. I'm really hyped up to draw stuff like I've never been this hyped over drawing aaaaaaaa fiodgiofdjhiofjhoidh;dih

k that's all thanks for hearing me

No parts of the body are safe from aging. That's fine, aging is a blessing and I love seeing photos of myself from when I was a child and now.

I'm aging like fine wine, you can barely tell I aged at all, honestly.

But my hands gross me out so much. As soon as I get stressed out, even over tiny things, they get all gross and my veins pop out as if they're trying to free themselves from my body.

My hands end up looking like my mother's hands.

And that makes me dislike my hands and want to hide them, cover them up while they're in use.

I hate how they look like her when I'm stressed, veiny and tense.

It reminds me of who I came from and how I can't truly run away from my family, as if God wants me to remember the hands that hurt me by giving them to me as I grow.

Maybe it's God's way of allowing me to heal, by showing me that even if I am my mother's child, even if I have her hands.

I'll never be like her.

Would I say I'm happy with it? Nah, would I say I dislike my life? Nah.

I think my life is just right.

I wish my brain could understand that.

I'm lonely but work makes me feel alive, I have trust issues but I know I'm loved, I dislike how I look but I know people think I'm pretty, I make people happy and feel good about themselves and that makes me feel human again, that's all that matters anymore to me.

I want to help people in any way I can, that's what makes my life a good one.

Y'know, I always wonder how people find my stuff, I don't really use tags nor do I make fanart for games or shows or whatever. It always shocks me when I get followers because I wanna know how people find my work lol.

I feel like I hide myself well, I kind of have a fear of becoming a big artist and being well-known and stuff, I know it'll never happen but that's why I don't really tag my stuff. I like to hide myself and my writing away from the world unless someone finds me and ask about it.

I think I'll always be like that but that's ok with me, I'm more than happy posting my silly drawings and knowing they'll only be found by a small group of people.

Thank you to all my followers for finding me and supporting my work!

DUDE

like I love the way my art gets interpreted like people have such cool thoughts and ideas about my work and it makes me giggle and smile every time.

Tbf some of the comments I've gotten have actually given me ideas for my story and actually push me to write about it more.

that's all I wanted to say because some of y'all are super cool and ily <3

I put myself down too much, I'm too hard on myself with almost everything I do.

But I really am on top of the world. I've completed almost all my college work, and the term still has two months left in it. I never thought I'd be able to do this, I feel so smart and proud of myself. I have so much time for myself, to be able to draw freely without worry, be able to write what I please and not hide it from peering eyes. Living in my own apartment, all to myself without any money worries.

I Should start to feel more proud of myself instead of being so hard and rude to myself. I've come so far as a person and I never thought I'd even make it this far. It's

It's really crazy what life can bring to the table. I really do feel like I'm on top of the world, am I fully happy with my life? No, not fully yet, I still need to make some changes to it but change takes time and I know when those changes happen I'll be even happier with my life. I am so thankful for everything that has been given to me and where I am now.

Anyway, sorry if this post seems sad or upsetting, I wanted to talk about this for a while but I feel like too many people get upset when I do so I thought I'd post about it on here where I don't have any friends/family on here lol.

here is a pigeon from the sims.

I've been drawing every day, and I'm really enjoying it!!! I'm actually able to draw and keep up with my schoolwork. (I've done all my college work for the month, lol.)

I think I might need to give my body a small break tho, I wanna draw so badly right now but my brain I think is so sleepy or something.

I also have been getting back into drawing artwork based on my story and its lore, I hope I can soon write about the lore and create comics for it but right now Im just gonna focus on posters and shit lol

Im actually posting art I made in early 2024 lol

Hope you like the spam

How THE FUCK do I post my commissions on here?

I wanna get back into making videos, animations, stuff for my story's lore, etc. It's not that I don't have the time to do this stuff I'm just a fast-working person and animation takes so long and I only know how to do frame-by frame. Maybe I'll get to work later today and make something small, I don't even know if I still have my small skill set.

Having said that, does anyone know any good videoing editing software for PC? I use Shotcut right now and its awful lol.