So for those who don't know, I'm an orphan.

I don't have any family.

Now, I have my boyfriend's family, each year for Christmas we see them and its always super fun and cheerful.

They treat me like family and are all so kind to me.

But I feel so out of place.

I don't feel like I truly belong there, like I'm that one family friend everyone knows but not really.

I love them all and I get along with them all and such.

I guess I just feel out of place because I'm an orphan and you see so many people with their families being happy and cheerful this time of year.

Maybe I'm just not used to it because I grew up getting beaten up on this day for being a spoiled brat or being why we didn't have food or whatever.

So eh maybe I'm overthinking it and I just need to get over it and realize I'm in a better place now and move on.

Anyways, Marry Christmas to everyone, I hope its great for everyone!!! I love you all so much and y'all kind of mean the world to me!!!

ok bye sorry for being a bitch boy on Christmas Eve lol