I wish I knew how people read my posts and the tone they give them.

I'm saying this because there is this odd mindset that I don't want to live and that I'm just this depressing person.

It's so odd to me how so many people tell me that I'm worth living or that life gets better when I don't believe I've ever said anything on here about passing.

I fear that I made people worry for me with how I write out my thoughts.

No, I don't want to die. That's just selfish and I'd hurt the people around me if I did that. Even if I'm alone and have more bad days than good, I must keep on living. They are people and creatures that need me to live. Overall, I'd say I have a good life, I have everything I could ever want or need. I believe I'll always have a good life in some way even if it has its ups and downs. Life will always have that and that's what makes living so wonderful. Even if my bad days are more common, that's ok because I know soon I'll have nothing but good days.

I hope no one thinks that I'm leaving anytime soon (unless a bus hits me, LOL) and that no matter what I'm gonna keep on living. I'm sorry to anyone who may have been worried about me or my health.

Please take care of yourself and I love you.

To make everyone happy, here is a photo of one of my childhood cars :)