I really wanted to break out of my comfort zone today and try to socialize more with people.

My work was doing this "Human book" meet and greet where you could meet and chat with people.

I really wanted to go, and I really wanted to make more friends in person, but I backed out. I was too scared even to step foot in the door. I feel like such a loser for not going through with it and meeting new people. I keep telling myself that I want to meet new people and have more connections, but I always get too scared to do so.

I feel so socially isolated and it's my own damn fault, I don't know why I keep doing this to myself, I don't understand why I push people away. I hope when I'm working full-time that maybe I'll have more connections to people and won't be so isolated like I am now. I truly am trying to be more social but it's so hard.

I will be more social and not a loser someday, just maybe not today I guess.